I have learned, time and again, that the only path I need to be on is my own. My goals, health and fitness related, are much different at this stage of my life than they were in my 20s and 30s. As we get older and as we have personal life experiences, that may change for you as well.
Once upon a time, for me, it meant having a super fit "looking" body while maintaining and unrealistic low level of body fat. This meant a diet and fitness routine of the strictest form. Waking up EVERY SINGLE DAY at the crack of dawn to eat, train, eat again, go to work, eat, go home, eat, and get to bed early enough so that I would have enough energy to do it over again the next day. I saw my day through a tunnel vision lens and nothing was going to stop me.....not until the health issues started showing up for me.
With several years of doing patch work to fix a thyroid gone wrong, chronic digestive problems including IBS and celiac disease, a ruptured esophagus, and personal emotional traumas that I've accrued specifically over the past several years, I see clearly that I cannot keep up with the regimen that I had originally outlined for myself. Last year's illnesses pulled a lot of the oomph that I had stored up for my working out. This year's loss of my sister-in-law and best friend has taken its toll on me as well. Try as I may to keep on keeping on, something's got to give.
I have found a tremendous amount of peace in not being in the grind these past few weeks. Mentally my mind wants to go and run a marathon. Emotionally, physically, and spiritually my body wants to nest in bed, be with my thoughts, and work through many of the emotions that come up from all of these things.
I have, for years, pushed myself to be on the same path as my beloved friends in an attempt to keep that common goal a tight link between us. I admire and respect their drive. The get up and go. The grind. The blood, sweat, and tears that go into their training, diets, and lifestyles. My mind wants to go there....but my body, the injuries and the fatigue, definitely want me to slow it down. Maybe not forever, but at least until I get a handle on what is happening for me.
When I ask you what your goal is I mean in respect to where you are right now. Of course, we have to have long term goals, but when we focus too far out, we fall out of the Now and lose sense of where we are. And it's the right Now that truly matters.
For me, my goal means to feel optimal today. To eat intuitively according to how my body physically feels and how my emotions are. I know that when my digestive system doesn't feel right that I'm going to have a bad day. I know that when I feel less than optimal in that area of my body I cannot focus and I make suboptimal choices. I feel depressed and I feel cranky. And that is definitely NOT a goal of mine.
Check yourself. Who are you doing it for. If it's anyone outside of yourself, than perhaps you need to rethink either the goal or the reason for obtaining that goal. I simply cannot go on with the same goals I had in my 20s and 30s. My body has changed significantly. My lifestyle has changed as well. I think that as a woman, it can be harder to adjust those changes. We are very hard on ourselves for our personal and physical appearances. But I see it in men all the time as well. They feel the need to grind it out as well.
So why do you do what you do? What's your goal? And more importantly, once you achieve it, is it maintainable.
Happy Easter, Everyone!!!
Keep a lookout for this year's spring cleansing special coming this April.
Best in health,